Golden Ticket

July 12, 2008,After waking up several times to pee and to take a pain pill I lied on my bed as the pain works it 's way up from my toes. I hope the pain pill I just took kicks in VERY soon. I start to think about how my life has been like and what will it be like. I'm trying hard to make small changes, but it seems as if none of my efforts are really making a good enough difference. Then a scene from the original Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory comes to mind. ( A lot of things from that movie has been popping up in my mind lately, and I'm not so sure why as it has been a very long time, since I've seen it) Anyway, I'm thinking of the scene where Charlie is feeling down in the dumps about not finding a Golden Ticket. He walks to his Mother's work and is talking to her about how he is feeling. She tells him that one day things will change. He then asks her when will they change, and she tells him probably when you least expect it. Could it be that I'm sitting by the phone waiting for it to ring? We all know that a watched phone never rings. Perhaps I should just continue to do what I'm doing and when I least expect it, I too will get my "Golden Ticket".